Breaking down the ego seemed like a good idea at the time. One of the side effects that I was left with, was a feeling that nothing really mattered, which wasn’t so bad, because it didn’t matter that nothing mattered.
So when thinking about what I would to have as the things that are important to me in life, I found myself asking the question:
What am I passionate about?
I drew a blank, and so continued to ask myself questions to aid my quest… What does it mean to be passionate? I can sense it, but found it more difficult to put into words.
After a few conversations about what creates passion, I started to see a pattern. All of the people I spoke to seemed to have experienced a series of increasing rewards relating to their obsessions. What caused them to start in the first place still escapes me… I guess that it could be a random chance, if such a thing exists in this world of preordained events.
So, can one become passionate simply by seeking reward for a particular action?
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Passion_(emotion)
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If you take my obsession with electronic music, for example, it was not one but a handful of rewarding experiences each of which built upon the last to form my passion. It’s the only lasting passion I’ve had. But as for how long it will last, who knows.
According to my hypothesis, you’ll keep that obsession for as long as you keep getting rewarded for it. Which seems like it would leave the responsibility for your passion in the hands of…
1. You; to deliver your music to the people who will respond well to it.
2. Fate (or rather my belief that the set of events which make up each persons individual behavioural patterns); to respond with either positive or negative, depending on whether it wishes you to continue along this path.
Think of Fate as your game of Domino Rally, and you are the cat that decides if and when to step in and change the direction of the game.
If you take my obsession with electronic music, for example, it was not one but a handful of rewarding experiences each of which built upon the last to form my passion. It's the only lasting passion I've had. But as for how long it will last, who knows.
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